Sometimes, you need a hand.

There is no feeling quite like it. A feeling of your world crumbling around you. You feel your blood drop from your head to your toes and your heart tries so hard to keep it from spilling everywhere so it starts to beat faster. You can see it. Every blood cell, every bit of essence of you, spills onto the floor around you like a tipped paint can.

Is it dread? Anger? Hurt? Shock. We can never really put our finger on it, that feeling. But we’ve felt it. And it feels horrendous.

Your boyfriend of 6 years says to you “I don’t see this going any further”
Your cousin says to you “we’re moving to London next month for good”
Your boss says to you “we need to cut costs”
Your brother says to you “I think Uncle Jim needs professional help”
Your friend says to you “I am ill. The doctors said…”

What follows this feeling can vary from person to person. Some experience rage and some, confusion. Some sit in disbelief and some start screaming. Inhalation becomes shallow, and gasping for air loudens. Tears can sometimes erupt, yet so can nervous laughter. The manners of dealing with THAT feeling will not be the same for one person as it is the next, but that feeling, that feeling of everything in you just draining to your feet and out of your pores… that is the same.

Also, what initiates it will differ from person to person. What matters is, how it is dealt with. Those chemicals flowing everywhere around you, what do you do to bring them back into your body, heart and soul again?

You find someone.

As much as you wish to Humpty-dumpty-put-yourself-back-together-again all on your own, you need to understand that somebody somewhere around you can and will help you. A friend, a sibling, a parent, a counselor or even a stranger, can and will help you. You just have to be willing and kind enough to yourself to actively go and look for them. Pride, personal strength and even numbness can be deterring you from asking for help, but if you can build even the slightest amount of strength to call or just message someone, do it.

You don’t know the power of that feeling until it’s the only thing you feel. Swimming in that pool of empty is not healthy for your heart and soul. Sometimes you think you can climb out of that empty pool if you push yourself hard enough, but a lot of the time you can’t. Sometimes you need to be as kind to yourself and accept this empty pools’ wall is too high to climb alone.  

Sometimes you need to allow someone else to give you a hand and pull you out. 

You need a hand
You need a hand


JHBeats is a 25 year old girl from Johannesburg, South Africa, who has a passion for chasing endorphin's found in healthy and happy living.

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